I want you back

Shams, he never came back
He left me, you know,

but he left me.
That's all there is to know about that.

He said to me I was a liability

We are liabilities to each other, he said.

Because he was selfish 

and I was too conversant

I would do anything to lie beside him again

Almost anything

Not anything actually

But i would like to

he hates me, deeply, fears me.

I am a monster to him.

I am a monster

I have never let him go and that is monstrous. 

He stepped over so lightly

so effortlessly to a better life

It seems so unfair to me, the monster

I can not help the monster I am

The more I  try, the more monster I become