Shams' Muse

this is day ten day ten count 'em onetwothree fourfivesix seveneightnineten nineten ninethen ten Monday to a Wednesday a week past To a thursday then a friday If he calls, it will be sunday, but he won't I'm not waiting you know not waiting I have written him in my heart a thousand times and I dream of getting lost on the bus lines in the chilterns lost lost lost Shams, i lost him on the buses i didn't mind anything of his non life his non car his non job his non house Shams, you can't make a partnership of one solo acts don't co-create I am not it not it not ninethenten nine then ten oh my god why does it hurt so much 

 You've got your foot on my low back And it's a dull ache that makes it hard to walk, hard to stand you're gone anyway and i wish you'd hurt yourself