Shams' Muse

I moved you to the archive didn't want to see your name didn't want to see what I'd written you last like i was begging i was begging beggar all i asked: do the thing end it, if it is over let me know.  instead keeping me on the line  with this better correspondence all new, all improved, better than shampoo better than bread, better than honey,  better than Shang Yu dancers better than the city of buildings going up and up i look every day for your message waiting for disappointment waiting for a flicker in the ash i  looked at that last picture and wondered who took that picture of you, the one with the bike why were you online at 2:39  out at the bar? you said you were sad you said you missed me the you of now is not that you that's an evil thing you know

If only sending you back were   As easy as returns at Amazon It’d save my heart the postage   But now I’m waiting on a text   That’s not gonna come   And telling all my friends it’s over Buried the lead on that  We went for ramen and boba Asked if I fancied you and I didn’t know if I liked avocado smoothies Thought you were grifter  

Still thinking about you  Dislocated heart fell in the first winter storm Reached for your hand and it wasn’t there The hospital said i’d need an operation Eight months later you weren’t there Caught a bus to watch the gulls at the port Still thinking about you, still thinking about you I’m a girl riding alone Snow spins this rental Chevy off route one Left on read my ride or die waiting for a tow   Ryan Adam’s Wonderwall breaking me to tears Read that last message riding shotgun  Hiked Castle Mountain and ate a cheese sandwich Still thinking about you, still thinking about you I’m   a girl riding alone Stamped passports and visas, slept in the airport Sang open mic night in Canmore with tears in my eyes You’re not riding that fat bike down 9th street I heard about the accident and there’s tears in my eyes A dislocated heart doesn’t heal, even with an operation The muscles need to get stronger And I moved on from thinking about you, still thinking about you, I’m a gi...